Saturday, August 25, 2012

Fire in Rock Canyon

This evening we realized that there was a fire in the canyon closes to our home.  It was started by two teenage boys who were setting off illegal fireworks.  Fortunately the fire was soon contained.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Facing War

During this past week, the professor and I watched the last few episodes of The War produced by Ken Burns.  It is a seven part documentary about World War II.  I started watching with him on the episode that covered D Day - June 6, 1944.

A review from Slate talks about the sentimentality and one sided view of the war:
"What The War provides ... is a harrowing portrait of war from the bottom up, as described by worried siblings, imprisoned civilians, and others who had little control over its direction. Burns focuses on the experiences of front-line soldiers—"our boys," in the anxious words of home front observers—who found themselves caught up in the "meat grinder" of national service."

I found the series interesting.  It did not always portray the American troops favorably.  It may not have shown the war from the view of other allied nations or their enemies.  While in Finland we found out that the majority of Germany's loses took place on the Eastern Front fighting against Russia.  This is a side of the war that we as Americans rarely, if ever, see.  About 3/4 of the deaths of the German military occurred on the Eastern Front.  

Despite any failings on the part of Burns in depicting the war accurately or from a biased view, I was fascinated by the two hour long episodes.  I was born in 1949 and in so many ways the Second World War and the Cold War dominated my life.  I felt as if half of the movies available were about the war while the other half were about cowboys.  

Since then I have become a big mystery reader.  I have read about all of the gruesome ways that a person can die and decompose from gun fire.  However, it was revealing to me to actually see black and white footage of people who had half of their heads blown away.  With a son in the US Marine Corps, I have learned that many of the deaths and traumatic injuries result from the impact of explosions.  A person does not have to be hit by shrapnel but can die simply from being thrown away from the explosion because of brain injuries that are unseen.  

One of the stories that was told was of a young girl whose American family was imprisoned in the Philippines.  One of the items that the young girl mentioned was that her mother breast fed her brother for three years.  At the time of their liberation, her mother weighed 73 pounds and could hardly move off her bed because she was so weak.  While in the Philippines many years ago, we met an American diplomat who had this very experience as a child during the war.  It was another foreign service office who told us about their internment.  Needless to say, this segment rang very true for me.  

I struggle to be non-judgmental but continually fail.  I had a difficult relationship with my father.  Part of my criticism stemmed from his service during WW II.  He was an aircraft mechanic.  He served in England repairing airplanes that returned from bombing or fire fighting with damage to the bodies of the airplanes.  One of the difficult challenges that he faced was that he did not return to Canada following the war until about April of 1946.  By the time he returned there were no jobs left and no farmland available to buy.  He faced many of the challenges of returning servicemen.  

However, I have been told by my mother's family that when he returned he was angry and he hit my mother and he hit their two year old son.  My grandfather Toole went to an attorney to see about filing for a divorce.  He was told that my mother had to come in and file herself.  She never did.  I have been told that my father continually told her that if she ever left him, he would keep the children.  Being young and naive, she never questioned his word.  The reality was that in that era, men very seldom had custody of their children.  They were always left with their mother.  

As an adult, I asked my father about his experience upon returning from the war.  He excused his violence and anger by saying that he had suffered during the war.  No doubt he did.  However, when I mentioned that he never saw combat, he rationalized that he had many friends who died.  

After watching The War, I have mixed feelings about my father's rationalization of his behavior upon coming home to his family.  Years later my mother still remembered his stinging remarks about the weight that she had gained and about the shape of her mouth and smile following extensive dental work.  She was not the girl he had left behind.  She was still nursing my ten month old sister and he soon put a stop to that.  He could not believe that she was actually breast feeding such an "old" child.  

Who am I to criticize anyone who lived through a war that had no end in sight?  Service people today are suffering from physical and mental wounds from the current wars that we have been involved in.  
And the infantry remains the same.  Only about ten percent of the military were actually involved in combat during WW II.  But the horrors that they saw and endured were almost unbelievable.  How did they manage to return to "real" life and adjust to "peace."  

Ken Burns' documentary may have had a definite American slant to it, but it left me feeling incredible compassion for all combatants and anger that anyone in a position of power should count human life so cheaply.  

Monday, August 6, 2012

Every Day Life

Not much happens on a day to day basis here in Provo.  The sun shines and the weeds flourish.  I have managed to avoid too much weeding because my arm is a pain on a regular basis.  And I do mean a pain.

One of the interesting aspects of having an x-ray and an MRI has been that I have learned that at some point in my life I had a broken arm.  The bone above the elbow on my right arm shows signs of calcium collecting to heal a break.  Of course, I have no memory of having a broken arm.  As my sister has said though, we seldom went to a doctor or dentist while we were growing up.  In fact she said that probably when I complained about my arm, our parents responded, 'It is just growing pains.'  That could very well be.  Or when my right hand was blown to pieces with my thumb hanging by a tiny fragment of flesh, maybe the arm bone was broken and no one noticed because of all of the trauma to my hand.  I will probably never know.

For the most part, I have become used to the continual ache of my arm.  Only once in a while do I use my arm or turn it in some way that I feel sharp pain.

Following the MRI, I learned that I have a torn rotator cuff and torn tendons and muscle.  I have good mobility despite the tear in the tissue over the shoulder joint so Dr. Richard Jackson suggested that we leave the arm alone and let the muscle and tendons heal themselves.  If the cuff becomes a problem at some later time, we can deal with surgery then.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Before Seeing the Surgeon



Unfortunately it is a remarkably flabby arm.  It is difficult to see that the bicep looks as if it is flexed continually.  Let you know how the appointment goes tomorrow.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

MRI



First MRI. I was calm and I felt completely comfortable with the procedure. However, my body did not get the message. I could feel every single breath I took and had to concentrate on breathing shallowly so that I didn't move. The results? Of course, I get to wait for the doctor's call; however, the technician was kind enough to tell me that the muscle in my upper right arm is definitely torn. How that happened? I have no idea.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Wild Fires

For the past several days we have been aware of a smell of wood burning in the air. A few days have been hazy. All of this is because of wild fires burning here in Utah. I was impressed today when the following letter was read in Church today.

Wildfires: Church leaders ask members to remember firefighters in prayers

Published: Friday, June 29, 2012



Deseret News photo
Fire near Herriman, Utah. June 29, 2012.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has issued the following statement:
“As requested by Utah Governor Gary R. Herbert, the Church is pleased to come together in prayer with other Utahns during this difficult time. We are mindful of those in Utah and neighboring states who have been impacted by wildfires. We encourage individuals, families and congregations to pray for the safety of firefighters, protection of lives and homes and favorable weather conditions to help control the many wildfires currently burning.”
Western wildfires devastate; Church members unharmed
Residents ordered to evacuate from 10-alarm Rose Crest Fire in Herriman
Fire breaks out near Rose Canyon; evacuations in place


RENO, Nev. (AP) – A firefighting aircraft crashed into rugged terrain near the Utah-Nevada border as it dropped retardant on a 5,000-acre wildfire, killing the two Idaho men on board. Find a Forecast Find your local weather with The Weather Channel zip-code lookup: By Scott G Winterton, AP The crash scene of an air tanker is seen from the air on Monday near Hamblin Valley, Utah. The plane crashed Sunday afternoon, as it dropped retardant on a wildfire, killing pilots Todd Neal Tompkins and Ronnie Edwin Chambless, both of Boise, Idaho. Enlarge By Scott G Winterton, AP The crash scene of an air tanker is seen from the air on Monday near Hamblin Valley, Utah. The plane crashed Sunday afternoon, as it dropped retardant on a wildfire, killing pilots Todd Neal Tompkins and Ronnie Edwin Chambless, both of Boise, Idaho. Sponsored Links The air tanker went down Sunday afternoon in the Hamblin Valley area of western Utah, Bureau of Land Management officials said. A helicopter crew saw the crash and told ground crews that "it didn't look good," Iron County sheriff's Detective Sgt. Jody Edwards in Utah told The Salt Lake Tribune. The two pilots were fighting the fire, which was sparked Friday by lightning in eastern Nevada. It has spread into Utah, though most of the blaze remained in Nevada, about 150 miles northeast of Las Vegas. Ground and air crews held the fire back from the wreckage, giving sheriff's deputies enough time to drive and hike to the site and confirm that the pilots had died, Edwards said. The fire later overwhelmed the crash site, Edwards said. A medical examiner was helping authorities recover the bodies Sunday night. The weather was windy and hot, creating "explosive fire conditions," said Tom Harbour, the fire and aviation operations director for the U.S. Forest Service. The terrain was rolling hills with pine, juniper and cheat grass, a thin wispy grass that carries fire quickly. There was no immediate word on what caused the crash

Saturday, June 30, 2012

More Lily and Gigi/Bridget

When Kimberly asks Lily who is in her family, she lists herself, mom and dad, Rex and Gee.  Therefore Gigi seems like an obvious shortening of her name.  I am missing them very much.




Lily is only 2 and 1/2 years old.  Yesterday Kimberly put a lock on her refrigerator to keep Lily out and to prevent her from pouring her own apple juice in a cup and all over the floor.  By the afternoon, Lily had figured out how to undo the lock.